5 February

hey peeps (:
its been long time i never update my blog.
sorry for that ya cause i`ve been busy lately so can't get to online.
yea , anyway im shifting house to BU7.
after chinese new year i`ll be staying there for a year. then after a year and high school life ends and i`ll be shifting away again. which means might be some where far from pj area.
i really hate that tho but i got no choice or nothing can really change the fact too.so just leave it that way till it gets the best of the best. i really wish everything settles as soon as possible. its really heart aching to see everything gone worst.
well , as i go through the whole busy week i realize something that is i can actually take care of my own self just that my family thinks i can't . i even drove the car over to the new house to drop by my stuff so its nothing difficult for me. ( :
i finally can do things on my own without anyone`s help.im all grown up! *LOL*
anyway , during the treasure hunting around my mom`s stuff i found something cool.
its a trip booking receipt to phuket--->langkawi and make sure you check on the year.
its really shiock-ing when i see it. im actually only 2 years old. i didn't know i went thailand before till i saw the receipt. i even looked back at some old pictures.
really miss those days. although i can't remember any of it but looking back at those pictures is really great and it actually makes me cry. i know is kinda weird if i said this.
i actually cried and laughed while looking all those pictures. the damn whole thing is complicating. just pretend like nothing happen but i know deep in my heart its forever there.
hmmmm . im always wondering what will i be in 5 years time ? any idea ?
well,well about high school life seriously getting lots of fun but something is missing.
i`ve been ignoring shawty for a week after the slapping incident happened.
i was damn mad at him yet i felt guilty for not talking to him. he`s been asking for forgiveness for a week. but then im not sure whether is he faking it or what so ever.
i lost 2 friends once and i wish i won't do it again. my mood swings a lot recently.
i`ve been really upset , frustrating and worried a lot nowdays.
i don't even know what the hell am i thinking about. i feel damn tired. feel lazy to do everything. even saturday and sunday im still working. but then at least i can do something than doing nothing. wil be continue tuition after chinese new year.
im gonna be a panda soon. *hahaha* but who cares after chinese new year i`ll be refreshing myself again. and to those people who actually reading my blog and what im gonna say is
I MISS SHAWTY ! i mean it . even if he knows i don't care.
cause nothing to hide.ohoh , don't simply think something else. i missss him as a friend who always bullys me and argues with me ( :
im here to apologize to him for ignoring him. you know although is his fault for slapping me like a mad fellow but i was not really in a mood that day. is just annoying sometimes lar.
he`s like mosquito flying around buzzing non-stop.thats really challenging my patients you know. i dislike it when im not in a mood. i know i can't stand for not talking to shawty cause its really bored. *hahahahahaha*

maine♥