6 February

hello there peeps ( :
its saturday afternoon. weather looking good.
never work today cause body aching everywhere. sorry Jib & Levis.
i know today is saturday and its gonna be busy but then i never show up.
my right shoulder hurts and pretty tired.
you know what people. im always thinking of what results im gonna get for spm when im not putting any effort in study. the thing i do in school is usually sleep or chit chatting around
i don't really have the heart to study. i seriously don't know why and what happen to me.
all i want is sleep ! WTF right?
my mind is turning upside down and i feel like giving up everything.
*ggggggrrrrrrrrrrr*
frustrating larrrr! will continue till the next update. don't know what to type already.
brain jamming now. ( x

maine♥

5 February

hey peeps (:
its been long time i never update my blog.
sorry for that ya cause i`ve been busy lately so can't get to online.
yea , anyway im shifting house to BU7.
after chinese new year i`ll be staying there for a year. then after a year and high school life ends and i`ll be shifting away again. which means might be some where far from pj area.
i really hate that tho but i got no choice or nothing can really change the fact too.so just leave it that way till it gets the best of the best. i really wish everything settles as soon as possible. its really heart aching to see everything gone worst.
well , as i go through the whole busy week i realize something that is i can actually take care of my own self just that my family thinks i can't . i even drove the car over to the new house to drop by my stuff so its nothing difficult for me. ( :
i finally can do things on my own without anyone`s help.im all grown up! *LOL*
anyway , during the treasure hunting around my mom`s stuff i found something cool.
its a trip booking receipt to phuket--->langkawi and make sure you check on the year.
its really shiock-ing when i see it. im actually only 2 years old. i didn't know i went thailand before till i saw the receipt. i even looked back at some old pictures.
really miss those days. although i can't remember any of it but looking back at those pictures is really great and it actually makes me cry. i know is kinda weird if i said this.
i actually cried and laughed while looking all those pictures. the damn whole thing is complicating. just pretend like nothing happen but i know deep in my heart its forever there.
hmmmm . im always wondering what will i be in 5 years time ? any idea ?
well,well about high school life seriously getting lots of fun but something is missing.
i`ve been ignoring shawty for a week after the slapping incident happened.
i was damn mad at him yet i felt guilty for not talking to him. he`s been asking for forgiveness for a week. but then im not sure whether is he faking it or what so ever.
i lost 2 friends once and i wish i won't do it again. my mood swings a lot recently.
i`ve been really upset , frustrating and worried a lot nowdays.
i don't even know what the hell am i thinking about. i feel damn tired. feel lazy to do everything. even saturday and sunday im still working. but then at least i can do something than doing nothing. wil be continue tuition after chinese new year.
im gonna be a panda soon. *hahaha* but who cares after chinese new year i`ll be refreshing myself again. and to those people who actually reading my blog and what im gonna say is
I MISS SHAWTY ! i mean it . even if he knows i don't care.
cause nothing to hide.ohoh , don't simply think something else. i missss him as a friend who always bullys me and argues with me ( :
im here to apologize to him for ignoring him. you know although is his fault for slapping me like a mad fellow but i was not really in a mood that day. is just annoying sometimes lar.
he`s like mosquito flying around buzzing non-stop.thats really challenging my patients you know. i dislike it when im not in a mood. i know i can't stand for not talking to shawty cause its really bored. *hahahahahaha*

maine♥

20 January

I would argue
Then you would cry
As you’re struggling, I would only get stronger
My heartaches behind these shadows
My face brightens up as I see your smile
I worry that you might notice my feelings
And I get scared that the gap between us would widen
I hold my breath
Then I bite my lips
Then I pray that she would leave his side.

Baby, please don’t hold those hands
Cuz you should be my lady
Please look at me, I’ve been waiting all this time.

Once the music ends, you’ll be with him forever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore

You, who never understood my feelings
Because of that, I ended up despising you
Then I wished a misfortune upon you
But now, my eyes are dry
I try to talk to you but I realized that I’m alone
Every night, I would look back and think
If I already knew the results
Then I close my eyes
Then I dream an endless dream
Then I pray she would leave his side.

Baby, please don’t hold those hands
Cuz you should be my lady
Please look at me, I’ve been waiting all this time.

Once the music ends, you’ll be with him forever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore

By all means, be happy with him
So I can move on
Please erase me out of your heart
Although I tried my best but, no oh~

I’ve been living the lies for too long
Yet, she would look at me and smile.

♥ ♥ BB

maine♥

18 January

all I ever wished that my nightmares will end
the sorrows and pain that everyone had been suffering all this years
I just want everything to be fine and to make everyone happy
but after all is just lies
everyone is hiding from the truth till everything gone nuts
things went out of control
every night i think of it my tears started to roll down non-stop
I just couldn't pretend anymore that im happy
its so hard to hold back all those hard times
those nights were the worst thing happened in my life
nothing is gonna changed if no one make a right and fair decisions
thats the only way to end all the pains we all been through
we all are getting stronger day by day
and brothers don't worry about me
I can take care of myself
although I seems a little soft and cries easily
but i`ll be strong! I will . . trust me
its time to stand up for our rights!

maine♥

16 January

hey peeps ( :
first of all i would thanks everyone that attended my birthday and peoples who wished me!
thank you so x10 much &heart;
the best night ever with you guys.
went over Curve, Vivo Restaurant for dinner. most of them i invited has attend.
happy enough (: then my four special guest
seendi
wailoon
kahfai
henry
anyway , sorry if you guys are bored or anything. after dinner everyone was camwhoring.
i didn't really take much pictures actually.but mostly are just candid not taken by myself.
the photographer of the night mendy & wanjie ( : tag me those pictures in FB ya!
don't forget. i`ll keep it as memories and might be frame it after washing those pictures.
just love you guys so much. i seriously had lots of fun. thats the outings that i ever wished for. birthday me didn't have any wish for this year cause no matter what i wished for is not gonna come true so just let it be.just hope that all my sorrows will all fade off and start a brand new life without sadness. i just wished to stay happy whole year.
it has been a GREAT year of beginning so it will till end of the year.
sometimes things meant to be remain silent and its better not to mentioned.

specially thanks to
chris
meljyn
zhiyong
yuehsern
ian
aeren
chongming
chonglim
lianjuan
weijiun
weiliang
aeren
everett
kelvin
kenmin
wanjie
mendy
elaine
amanda
huikwan

maine♥

10 January

hey peepss ( :
im extremely excited today that i get to meet MR Russell Lee the author of the best singaporean ghost stories. got lots of his pictures. guess what? i even got his autograph.
im so gonna frame it.
* before the whole russell meeting*
went over to curve with teddy & dee.
walked around while waiting for teddy both of us went for a little shopping.
finallyyy got my birthday dress. im loving it ♥
we were having lots of fun today.and its also the best day ever.
after all the walking and pictures went back to ou and watched paranormal activity.
OMG! damn fucking scary.you people should go watched it and im sure you`ll scream your lungs out. anyway , i`ll be helding a birthday party next week at curve.well , hopefully everything goes well.just hope that won't be over budget or else im screwed! ) :
6 days to go till the big day!

maine♥
10/01/2010

Photos Update (:

hey peeps (:
im back again with this few pictures with mr wilson tan & his family.
well , im here to wish him
HAPPY EARLY SEVENTEEN BIRTHDAY!
and thanks to his parents that always invite me along to any party they held.
*mr , i got your present already will give you soon when i see you*
anyway , yesterday was pretty frustrating.
can't get free books this year just because all books are not returned.
some bastards stole my books and yet teacher expect me to pay back 9 books of money
if like that i rather buy my current 6 books that i needed to use.
seriously SPBT teacher is damn irresponsible. she should check the serial number on the text books. if she did that way i bet a lot of them would surely don't have to pay for no reason! just like me. god damn im pissedddd.
after school went over ou to check out whether can get or not but unfortunately only ikano,popular have those text books.so took cab over and only cost me 5$ so worth it.
walked around and got one hoodie which is really comfy. got my text books but only 2 but at least better than none. around 6pm + wanted to go back to ou so went over to asked the taxi man.the moment i asked him i want to go ou he just simply charged me 15$.
WTFFF@!$#%$^%*&($!@$#@%$@%
why so expensive? is so damn freaking near and you want to charge me 15$ ?
god damn it! i rather walked back so did i. walked there till around 8pm + bin came over and fetched me for dinner.after dinner reached home prepared for school and went to bed.
koko will start tomorrow and that sucks!
will update soon.

maine♥

3 Jan 10

hey peeps!
finally its a brand new year (:
well , yesterday was my last day working , feeling good.
anyway , attend to wilson`s early birthday party at neway with his family.
all his little cousins were singing michael jackson`s song.
cool right? all of them sang without out of tune just nice
no screaming no mumbling
*hahaha* no pictures were taken by me cause his family and friends capture all
will post those pictures once i get it! wilson,if you see this what im gonna say is ....
YOUR FAMILY ROCKS! not joking but seriously they`re damn nice.
its not my first time hanging out with his family too.kinda lot of time already.
they all are just cool parents,aunts and uncles. not like those old era type of peoples.
and tomorrow is gonna be the first day of school again. *hahaha*
my motto of this year is gonna be " new year, new start & all old history are wiped out"
its gonna be a tougher year for me to stand on myself.
*aaaaaaaaaarrrrrgghhhhhhh*
counting down for my 17th birthday! im all grown up peoplesss!
<3 LMAO
see you guys in school tomorrow.

maine♥